I am very aware that I am not the only one that has depressive feelings. I just find it interesting that one day you can feel joy and happiness and the next day you can feel down and out.
I remember as a young girl feeling like I didn't have any true friends. There are also moments in my adult life that I have had these same feelings. This little songl came to my mind and I then realize I really don't feel that bad.
Nobody Likes Me (Guess I'll Go Eat Worms)
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me,
I think I'll go eat worms!
Big fat juicy ones,
Eensie weensy squeensy ones,
See how they wiggle and squirm!
I don't think I will continue to write the rest of the verses because it is way too gross.
Anyway, I got up this morning with a depressive feeling. My husband didn't help much because he was having a stress filled moment at work. I tried prayer; but I don't think I want to hear back today. I have had the thought that I would love a good chat with a friend; but I don't want to be the one to call. I have thought perhaps I should connect with one of my daughters that I haven't talk with for a while. It all feels like work to me today.
I love to write so I thought maybe if I blog my feelings that will be helpful. So here I am confessing what a down day I am having.
I also remember when I was a pre-teen I had a dog names Nippy. He was named that because he liked to nip. I could tell a postman story on this one. Anyway, I loved that dog; at that time he was my best friend.Whenever I had a really bad day I could talk with Nippy. In fact, I would sit down on the porch and put my hand under his chin, looked into his eyes and then I would tell him all of my sad stories. He was such a good listener. I treasured those talks with Nippy.
So all of my friends out there in blog land I don't feel like being happy today and I know that is a choice. I choose to be unhappy today at least for a moment or two.
It reminded me of a quote in a book by Elder Boyd K. Packer in 1982. There was concerns that many of the woman in the church were depressed and were going on medications to help with their depression. Remember this was the Molly Mormon era. At this time we were facing a job loss, a move, and younger children to help with new area adjustments. I wasn't a happy camper then and I wasn't a Molly Mormon who could handle everything with joy and happiness in her heart.
As we were listening to conference this year there was a thought by Elder Boyd K. Packer that had a great impact on my thoughts during this time. Elder Boyd K. Packer explained: “It was meant to be that life would be a challenge. To suffer some anxiety, some depression, some disappointment, even some failure is normal. Teach our members that if they have a good, miserable day once in a while, or several in a row, to stand steady and face them. Things will straighten out. There is great purpose in our struggle in life” (“That All May Be Edified” , 94).
Another thought that was expressed by a general authority; of which I don't remember which one said something like this; "It is OK to be depressed for a few days; but don't waller in it."
I think I will just continue to enjoy this depressive moment. Perhaps later in the day I will try the old adage to just get up and go out and serve someone today, call up a good friend or visit with one of my daughters.
I know Oprah believes in keeping a Gratitude Journal which can help with depression and I do too.
Maybe just a few gratitude thoughts for this minute of time; maybe it will help.
. I love blogging
. I love all my friends
. I love all my friends out there in blog land.
. I love my little dogs who listen too me too.
. I love uplifting quotes on life.
Hugs and love to all of you!